Being a Paramedic Prior to Medical School

Greetings! I was asked by [Joyce] to talk about how my previous work experience as a paramedic affected my first year in medical school. It was my pleasure to do so, but let me say this out front: this is an opinion piece, and incredibly subjective. With that, let me get my resume out of the way: I answered 911 calls on an ambulance for seven years prior to medical school. I got my EMT-B (emergency medical technician – basic), and found a volunteer fire department and started answering EMS calls. And I loved it. Soon, I got my paramedic certification and started working 911 full time.

Small aside for those who are unaware, EMT and paramedic are different things. I include this because I was asked frequently about the difference between the two. An EMT is usually trained in the basics of life support, CPR, airway management, and treating trauma. Almost all firefighters are credentialed EMTs as well. As you get more credentialed, you can start intravenous lines (IVs) and give some medications (This was called AEMT for Advanced in Texas, but before that it was EMT-I for Intermediate, but we usually used the latter). Paramedics (EMT-P) are additionally trained in advanced cardiac life support and pediatric advanced life support. In Texas they are trained to intubate, perform pharmaceutically assisted intubation (ie, anesthesia), trained to read EKGs and identify STEMIs (heart attacks), and give more medications as appropriate, like narcotics. The idea is to emulate the first 30 minutes of the ER in the back of a fancy pick up truck. 

“The pay is better as a paramedic” is what I usually tell people in order to keep it short and sweet.

So I got my bachelors, went into EMS, and ended up teaching EMT and paramedic students. I had wanted to go to medical school since my sophomore year in college but forgot about it with all the fun I was having working 48 hour shifts every week, with some overtime here and there. Thankfully I broke my shoulder, had to take medical leave, took the MCAT, applied to medical school two years in a row and got in on my second try.

If you are applying to medical school as a first responder allow me to tell you this, if you haven’t figured it out already: No one in the academic or medical field knows what you do. Some doctors, usually ER docs, do have an idea from experience and working with EMS, but most do not. Academia has even less of a clue. I was told I needed more leadership experience by a pediatric neurologist on an admissions board, saying my job was just “epi or no epi, am I right?”.  This was the morning after I treated a pediatric patient presenting with drug resistant seizures in the middle of the night. 

“Now hold on there Dr. ‘rectal valium or no rectal valium’!”

I was told a lot by friends and family that I was a shoe-in for medical school over and over again, but this was not the case. They probably thought this because I would tell them stories about how I fixed this or that patient and how I recognized this rare condition and how exciting (but more often boring) my shift was. They told me how I would get in, no problem. Allopathic schools never called back and I had three interviews at osteopathic schools after applying to over 50 schools. Did I likely overextend myself? Yes, that is probably too many schools. But my point remains that being a nontraditional applicant, was and is, tough. 

My significant other said I could go to the fire academy only if I never got into medical school. She was diametrically opposed to me being a firefighter so I assumed she got me in somehow. 

Alright, let’s get into how being an EMT/paramedic helps and hurts your first year in medical school.

Having been trained in medical skills helps…

To my memory, we tried to knock out vital signs, IM (intermuscular) injections, blood draws, IVs, and intubations as skills in the first year: a paramedic’s bread and butter. I had a great time not worrying about this stuff, only so that I could worry about the basic sciences course. They may have a video for you to watch about how to do these things, or a chapter in Bate’s  and then they sit you down to test out in front of a doctor or a fellow.

Taking a skills test is a new kind of test taking that you may not have had yet. I entreat you to find the skill check off sheet or the rubric, and learn it line-by-line as if you are learning your lines for a play. If you say your lines, out loud, in order, then it is more likely that your hands will follow suit. EMT and paramedic training is months and years of skills tests offs. It gets less nerve wracking with time and practice. It’s all fine motor and gross motor movements, so repetition is key, and that’s what clinical time will help with. For you Type A personalities out there, failing to do an IV at first is what is expected. 

For those of you trained on this stuff, be ready to take over for a doctor who is tired of teaching the skill after doing it all day. Try to get a letter of recommendation out of it. Be humble, and watch as your classmates delight to hear at task explained in pure English rather than medical-ese. 

… But don’t assume you know everything.

I failed my first vital signs check off.

“Where’s that guy going?”
“Medical school is what he said.”
“Wait, that guy?”

 I walked in second in line like I was the big man on campus and they failed me on my first vital signs skill check off. Granted, they failed a lot of people that day. And there was quite a scandal when we found out the manikins they used to test us off on were all sent off for maintenance. But regardless, I failed. 

I tried to take it on the chin. My significant other and friends seemed more upset than me. I retested and passed. But this was not the last time I would fail some clinical aspect and had to retest. My reason for why this happened is because they didn’t want me to be a paramedic in medical school, they were trying to teach me to be a doctor, if you can imagine. 

This would continue in the classroom. A question would ask about a medication I had used or been around, or a condition that I had seen or learned about for my last job. I would use my experience to guide me when I had not had the time to study up on such things. I was right sometimes but wrong other times. I once made an ass of myself in front of a tutor regarding pulmonary embolisms arguing about necrosis or apoptosis. But you know what? If I had just shut up and sat down I probably would have learned more pathology than what they teach you to help grandma when she falls down and breaks her hip. 

However, working in true emergencies does help, in that…

You should have a good idea of the stakes…

There is a lot of stress with medical school.  There is no way I could think to phrase that in a way that convey just how stressful it is. But right now, in year one of medical school, no one is dying. I said that to myself often.

“Wait, what did he just say?”

It helped remind me of what was important. Some people may have figured how to study every day, all day, but I could not be a medical student for 168 hours a week. I needed some time away from it to stay happy and sane. 

 A lot of that is how you are going to manage time. At the community college where I got my paramedic training from they handed me an Excel sheet that had a cell of each hour of the day in rows, and each day of the week in columns. Then they had use fill it in; Sleep, meals, work, exercise, school, commute. 

Your education specialist or adviser may do a similar thing when you start and it’s a good thing to do at least once. Just like taking out the correct amount for student loans (my biannual nightmare), you have to budget each hour. In paramedic school it was because almost all of us were working one or two jobs while in school full time. I worked two jobs and I was single, and I can still say that was a really hard year. Most of the married people in my class were separated or divorced by the end of our year long training. 

When I got out of training I worked my tail off with overtime, trying to make money for the first time in my life. A lot of first responders do that, especially if they are starting families. And then burn out happens. Your empathy takes a nosedive. You forget why you wanted to be there in the first place. You resent the people at home for trying to sympathize but also for not caring enough about what you’re going through. You probably drink too much. Your passion is all gone. 

Beware of the burnout. 

I don’t have kids, but one of my close friends in medical school does and I know several who do. Some industrious young men had their first children in year one of medical school. And those people, your family or the people you bring with you to medical school, need you to spend at least some time with them. I know you are busy, but they help ground you. I have a significant other, she always gets my Saturday morning. We did not do a lot of dates last year. Sometimes she would let me off the hook from cleaning the house Sunday morning if there was a test on Monday. But for the most part I did not leave her hanging to cook, clean, and help pay the bills. Plus, I love my SO, so hanging out with her decreased my stress and helped me focus when I did study. Working on those boundaries between time and emotions and school took effort. 

For those coming to medical school by themselves, you will not be alone. I know a couple of guys have a board game night one night a week in the cafeteria. I haven’t seen them miss a week, even in the most hellish of test weeks. Do something like this. Make plans, go out once a week, be a human, not a med student for a handful of hours. Back to the board game guys, as a fan of board games and tabletop RPGs I walk by them slowly, hoping they will feel that I am psychically reaching out to them, wanting to be invited… but alas …

At least you have your real world experience!

Man oh man, I wish I could remember more about my patients so I could write them thank you letters when their exact situation showed up on a test question. Mostly you, poor older woman with a candida infection under her breasts so bad we needed towels to even get close to doing a 12 lead EKG. Who could forget you when my pathology professor wanted to teach my about fungal infections?

When you get to cardiology, find someone who worked as an EKG tech or a paramedic or a nurse. For whatever ungodly reason, our school spent an hour or two teaching us how to read EKGs, gave us a book written by some cocaine-addled pedophile old doctor (you’ll know which book when you read it) and then had a bunch of test questions about EKGs. Not cool.

The Wikipedia page for that author is eye opening.

I asked the EMS academy I worked for if I could borrow some of the material we used to learn EKGs as paramedics and it was great for helping teach my classmates basic EKG interpretation. This was a nice because …

I did not have a solid science background.

Most of you will. Most of you didn’t finish their degree in history with a minor in biology like me. But some of you did something similar, or some of you got older than 22 and now your brain isn’t as fast as it used to be. 

So thank goodness of the all the other people who were TAs in anatomy, or were scribes, or actually liked biochem and microbio. Because I needed each and everyone of those people as I struggled to tell which was a nerve or an artery on a cadaver, or how to write a note like a doctor (not a paramedic), or learning about how a cell works. Just anything about a cell. They remain mysterious, complicated little things, to me.

So really, by teaching some people EKGs, I was returning the favor. Paramedic training is not nearly as zoomed in on cell function, as they are mostly concerned with the air going in and out and the blood going round and round. Also, paramedics love emergencies, (I certainly did and do) but not everything in medicine is an emergency, which is easy to forget when you are paid to ride an ambulance around pretty fast for a living. To the first responders, I entreat you to remember all of the 911 calls you got that were not actually emergencies, and realize that you are going to learn how to help those people the most during the first three or so years of medical school. All that advanced cardiac life support? That is run quickly through at the end of year 2 for us, then on to family medicine rotations. Which can be frustrating because you probably like dealing with real emergencies if you worked with an ER. The good thing about that job experience is, no matter what that one pediatric neurologist said that one time…

You probably have leadership skills!

Hurray! So I would encourage you to get involved in student government or a club and serve in some capacity as a leader. It is a useful skill when you are good at it, and something you need to work on if you suck at it. You likely are applying to or have been accepted to medical school, and it is incredibly likely you will be in charge of stuff and people as a doctor. I hope I am not the first one to tell you that.  

“Alright, I hope y’all know what you’re doing because I’m not good at telling people what I want or accepting feedback in a way to helps us function as a team…”

A couple of words of caution, however, to the former military and first responders and future leaders …

Your classmates are not your former coworkers.

I had several students who were veterans at the EMS academy who had trouble with this one. They would come home from Iraq or Afghanistan, and enroll in our courses to work in a familiar field to treat acute trauma and have a command structure with lieutenants and captains and chiefs. They were smart and passionate, but constantly bewildered when their way of speaking to a classmate, coworker, or patient was somehow hurtful or seen as insensitive because they, as veterans, were not used to talking to civilians. 

I have a filthy mouth, as I was reminded today while riding my bike next to someone in their car with the window down, unbeknownst to me. I asked in many different, colorful ways what they were thinking, and they in turn revealed that they heard every choice word by yelling back at me.

“Where are you going with that mouth? Oh. The medical school?!”

Medical school frequently asks that I behave professionally, and I try my hardest. But man, I have written some apology emails. I was so used to living with my coworkers. My last partner and I lived one third of our lives together because of our shift schedule. We worked in a fire house with four guys and nothing was off the table, conversation-wise. You know what isn’t the same thing as a fire station? A medical school. 

I know you likely did not read a blog about medical school in your free time to be reminded to behave but I had a hard time learning this lesson. Or at least keeping my mouth shut AND learning this lesson. 

Speaking of learning, if you were a paramedic I bet you want to get into medical school and go on to residency because…

You just want to be an emergency medicine doctor

It’s fun, exciting, and you get to fix all the problems that a paramedic leaves you with. Chest tubes, levophed drips, then send ‘em up stairs, on with the next train wreck. “The ER is where it really happens,” you say, “that’s where death gets showed a thing or two!” Boy howdy, you may even want to go back to your old service and be the medical director. I know I do. It’s comfortable, and you would probably be good at it. You see all these urgent cares going up, you are already used to shift work and long hours. There is not a whole lot else you want to be when you grow up. But please …

Don’t drop anchor on emergency medicine this early

I never shadowed a physician prior to medical school. I didn’t know how to set it up or didn’t want to. My job was my clinical experience, and medical schools should know that (now we know they don’t). I did recently and he showed me so many new things that medicine does. I saw procedure in the OR and he worked in internal medicine in a cancer hospital. And every day I saw something new, I wanted to do that for a living. 

Did you know a radiological oncologist basically crunches numbers and hands them off to some PhD to actually deliver the radiation therapy? They are paid handsomely for it. There are combination residencies. There is an endless cornucopia of future jobs you could be happy with, and you likely will not see them during your clinical internship/clerkships. So I hope you shadow someone soon or between your first and second year that’s outside your comfort zone. Or just don’t decide on day one what residency you are applying to. Be an open vessel. 

8 Things I’ve learned (so far) in Medical School

Hello loves.

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I know, I know, I’m not very good at posting since starting medical school. I’m gunna try to write more when I have a free weekend and have them self post, but ya know, life happens. Okay there, that’s my disclaimer.

I’m 6 weeks into being an OMS-1 (or osteopathic medical student, year 1), and my god can I just get my degree already?? [Insert your favorite laughing but crying emoji here.] I learned a lot last year in COB about myself personally and my perseverance to get through shit, but this year I am learning all about boundaries and being okay with less than perfection. Below I have compiled a list from what I have learned and from what some of my classmates and friends have passed along.

1. Be prepared for long days.

There are many days (you can look at my biochem schedule to see a few) where you will start at 8am and end at 5 or 6 pm. During our MSK (musculoskeletal) block we would have anatomy lab 2-3 times a week on top of our scheduled lectures, OS labs, SP encounters (where we learn to be doctors), etc. We do have anatomy group tutoring (which is usually at 5-6pm at night) and on top of that, we each have small group anatomy lab tutoring now (which is usually from 7 or 8pm to 10 or 11pm). Long days guys. There are going to be days where your schedule is so packed you simply cannot do a lot of studying for the day. Find your pockets to study elsewhere.

Personally, if its super late like that I’m likely to just go to bed early and try again the next day.

2. Get ready for a new kind of tired.

Now, I’m not saying these things to freak you out. Honesty is what I do. Some people love it, most people hate it. If you are about to embark on a journey like this, you shouldn’t be getting a sugar-coated version. You deserve all of the information (from all angles, not just mine) so you can make an educated decision. And even though you are listening to my struggles and triumphs through this, don’t let anybody tell you not to be a physician if that is what you truly want. 

You may personally know physical exhaustion, but you will now know what mental exhaustion feels like. If you’ve done any sort of higher education outside undergrad (let’s be real, undergrad wasn’t challenging every day all 4 years, if at all for some people), then you know what I mean. Your brain is going into overdrive to learn so many things and make those connections and recall. You learn to live with it and find ways to slightly recharge yourself. It’s different for everyone with the level of exhaustion, and recharging is different for everyone is well. I’m still working out on how to recharge personally.

3. Be okay with failing or not getting an A.

Getting an A is not your new bar. It’s fine to have this bar at first, but I can guarantee that this will likely fade fast. Passing is your new bar. I’m all for reaching for the stars, but something does have to give. There are times when you won’t have the desired amount of time to study or you are too exhausted from your test a few days before to go hard for this one. Burnout is real, and there has to be time where you choose to sleep, eat, shower, and give yourself a mental break. You will not know everything, and that’s okay. Hopefully you learn to pick the less important stuff to punt. Sometimes I am able to, sometimes I punt things that really they asked too many damn questions about.

Medical school tests are also designed to be hella difficult. Say goodbye to 1st order questions; there are way more 2nd and 3rd order questions. I think the only first order questions I really got were on my anatomy lab practical where it was basically “identify this”. Even then, you had to know where it was coming from to figure out what it was, so really it didn’t feel like an easy 1st order question. These questions are mentally draining, and there are going to be times where you won’t know it. That’s okay. Seriously, passing in medical school is basically where everyone starts celebrating. Getting in the 80’s for most people is hella fantastic. If you do better than that, I applaud you sir/ ma’am.

4. You will not necessarily be the smartest person in the room.

You is smart. You is kind. You is important. – From The Help.

You are intelligent. No one is doubting that. You couldn’t have gotten here if you weren’t smart enough to pass all those hurdles and still be a decent human being. But, you are on a level with a class full of people just like you: incredibly smart, driven, dedicated, and resourceful. This is new compared to your undergrad classmates. You are all on a more even playing field, and some people will excel much better in certain subjects than others.

For example, I did well in biochem, but MSK, even though I love anatomy, is not going well for me. Even though I have always done very well in anatomy in the past, this clearly is not the point in my life where I will excel at it. It’s quite okay. The next test or the next unit I’ll make my bitch.

5. Your grades don’t define what kind of physician you will be.

Yes, you need to learn all about normal and abnormal to be able to help your patients. But honestly, once you pick a specialty you won’t remember half (if you remember that much) of what you learned in medical school. But you will know what you need to know for your specialty so incredibly well. Your grades also don’t dictate your communication skills, your empathy, and your ability to listen to your patients.

Patients, from my experience as a scribe, want to know that you are listening to them. That they are heard, that you have given them a platform to be heard, and that you can empathize with them.

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Then they want you to fix them.

 

 

Your grades won’t be able to teach you that. Don’t get me wrong, grades are important. But more importantly are going to be your board scores which give you a residency (or job!), and your ability to take care of your patients. Fixing your patients isn’t just about finding the problem, it is also as a whole making sure they are taken care of–> which usually means you’ve listened to them and given them options in some cases so they can have autonomy (or make their own choices about their health- if this is applicable). Again, this is from my scribe experience, not my minimal experience as an OMS-1. 

6. Keep up with your mental health.

You need to get into the habit of doing things to keep your mental health at a good place. If that means taking a break that night from studying, do it. Need a glass of wine? Drink it. Need that bath and face mask? Partake in it. Need to play some video games to tune the world out? Make those fingers fly.

Are you getting my point here? It’s okay to not be studying every second. In fact, being in a good mental state, getting enough sleep, and eating well will get you farther than pulling all nighters and constantly studying. Your brain does better in testing situations when you are overall happier and healthier, so don’t let that slip. It’s going to be hard, I know. There are times when I forget to eat or forget that I need to go home to take care of other things, but allowing yourself the decency to be in a good place will get you pretty damn far.

7. You are a resilient human being.

Give yourself credit for this. Again, it’s hard to pass all the hurdles needed to get to medical school, and there are many more you need to pass once here and beyond. There will be times that you will trip, maybe even face-plant a bit. But really, you’ve got this. Failing or doing something that isn’t your best or didn’t exactly go your way won’t stop you from being a great doctor. Use it to help better yourself.

8. Start practicing being humble.

I mean, I can’t believe I have to tell some people this but yes, practice a little humility here peeps. It’s okay to stroke your own ego, just make sure it isn’t so large it’s suffocating everyone around you. You need somewhat of an ego to get you here, but your future teammates and patients aren’t going to return if it’s so large no one else can stand being in the same room as you.  Humility also comes into play with knowing that you will be wrong, and you will screw up. Own it. It’s a learning process. You will have greater growth through messing up than doing everything perfectly.

 

Let me know what you’ve enjoyed about this post or what you would like to see more of on this blog in the comments below! #shoutout to those friends and classmates that responded to help me write this post.